Over on Kaiberie.com, on the main AtoZ challenge post, I’m talking about Home.
Gotta be honest, I’ve been upbeat on this blog so far about my headaches. This post though, isn’t quite so positive.
I’ve spent the last almost six months learning to live with my headaches, and learning to live with headaches means getting used to spending time being uncomfortable or my head hurting. It’s been a long time since I’ve had to worry about persistent pain to this level, if I’m honest. And I am very aware that I’m lucky, and that this is something that people might struggle with without the resources we have access to. So, while I’m ‘happy’ to acknowledge that, I’m also aware that the pain that I’m in isn’t something anyone can ‘compare’. Even if we have exactly the same disorder, I kinda feel like it’s unfair to talk about whether it’s ‘worse’. So, if you’re dealing with the same sort of disorder as me, I am truly sorry.
But, there is a ‘Headache from Hell’ component that I’d like to talk about.
I used to call the migraines that I had headaches from hell, To be honest, I had no clue what I was in for when I started having these headaches, if I’m entirely honest.
These are another level terrible headaches.
I’m exhausted a lot of the time too. And my days start ok, but can middle or end badly. Or be absoutely lousy in the morning and be fine the next day. It’s difficult to judge.
Headaches from hell only REALLY have one or two ways that work for me. Dark room, no music, lie there, or power through.
My days have mostly been ‘dark room, no noise’ lately, for the really bad ones, and power through for *everything* else.
And the worst thing about this has been living with the absolute disappointment of people looking over at me and saying ‘when you are better’ and it’s … if. Maybe. Living with.
So yeah, the biggest issue with the Headache from Hell? I don’t think it’ll ever go away. And each day go dealing with it, is another day that I know I’m probably right. Tomorrow though, is another day, and maybe the meds will work, or it’ll stop and it’ll all be ok.
Hope your headaches do go away.